Now Shelby Can Go Find Her Sweet Goliath

With a heavy heart, today I helped Shelby be free from her worn-out, little body. - me and shelby


It was a difficult decision to make, but I knew it was the right one. Yesterday morning the vet called and said I should bring her home because she wasn’t getting any better there. We all hoped that once home, she’d perk up. She did a little and even ate some food.

Last night I showed my work at Lawrence’s Final Friday gallery crawl. When I got home & was unlocking the door, out of the corner of my eye I saw something dark coming toward me. My heart jumped because I thought it was Goliath. But, it was Shelby. She had made her way outside and was waiting for me on the porch.

That night I shut the pet door to be sure she would stay in so I wouldn’t have to worry about her. In the morning, she was by the pet door, waiting to get out. So I took her outside into the backyard and set her in a spot she likes. When I came back out, she was under the side porch. I was worried she had gone under there to die, and it would be hard to get her out in that situation. So I removed the side panels crawled under, and got her out.

I set her up on the front porch with blankets, towels, and water and blocked the front entrance so she would stay there. Without going into detail, it was obvious she was very sick and wasn’t going to get better. I called the vet and made an appointment to put her out of her pain and suffering.

Luckily I had time to be with her before I took her, and so did the neighbor, who is fond of both Goliath and Shelby. I wanted to just sit and hug her until it was time to take her to the vet, but she didn’t want that. So I sat by her without disturbing her.

I got to spend more time with her while we waited for the vet, and I held her a little until she made it clear she wanted to lie down. I stayed while he put her to sleep because I wanted to be with her. I was so sad and cried a lot. And then I sat with her afterwards for a long time petting and kissing her. I didn’t want to leave her.

Losing two cats in one month is devastating. Basically, I lost 2/3 of my little family. But I know if I hadn’t put Shelby to sleep this morning, she would have suffered needlessly the rest of the weekend while her body shut down. She isn’t in pain anymore. I know her heart was broken with Goliath disappeared. And her body was already worn down. Now she can go find her sweet Goliath.

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  1. Oh Traci, I’m so sorry for you and your losses. I went from 3 dogs to 1 in a little less than a year and I can’t imagine having to do that in a month. It truly is heartbreaking, and there’s nothing to do but get through it.

    I am glad you have your dog and doubly named kitten to help you through it. I’ll be sending my good vibes your way hoping they help a little as well.

    Take care. xxx.

  2. Oh, Traci, I am so sorry to read this. You gave Shelby so many wonderful years of love and care, and in the end you did what was best for her, no matter how heartbreaking it was for you. {hugs}

  3. I am more sorry for your loss than words could ever express. Right now everything I type just seems clichéd to me. I’m sitting here crying. Goodbye, Shelby. Hope your heart mends soon, Traci.

  4. I am so very sorry, Traci. You did everything you could for your kitties, I once had to put down a beloved pet, and it was so terribly sad. I am holding you and Shelby in my heart.

    Remember your gratitude post, it was/is beautiful. I am sure something wonderful is waiting in the wings for you.

  5. I am so sad for you Traci ~ I have been following along and praying for the safe return of Goliath and for shelby to get strong again. I am so sorry! many hugs to you!!!!!

  6. So sorry Traci. I know how much you love your roomies. So hard to do this, but sometimes it is the right think to do. Hang in there, again , this comes with being a good pet mommy. Love and hugs

  7. I’m so sorry about this Traci. You did the right thing, but I know it hurts like hell to say goodbye to a beloved pet. You really are going through a rough time right now. Too much sorrow. Wishing you well.

  8. I’m so sorry to hear about your latest loss. To lose 2 beloved cats in such a short time must be devastating. But you did the best for your sweet Shelby.

  9. Dear Traci – I am so very sorry for loss. 🙁 I’ve had to do this with a beloved 20 year old kitty and it was terrible. 🙁 I’m thinking of you…..

  10. Dear Traci,
    We are so lucky to be able to help our animal companions at the time they need us the most. I wish you peace, I wish you comfort and joy in your memories of your two sweeties.

  11. Oh Traci… I’m so sorry! Those kitties couldn’t have had a better and more loving mama than you. Be extra good to yourself right now. I send you a big hug, and very understanding love. I’m glad you’ve got Pippa Clover to love you and distract you with her kittenish antics. xoxoxoxo!

  12. Traci, I am so sorry to hear this. It made me cry. I’ve been following your story and heartbreak and it makes me so sad for you. My beagle/basset mix recently passed on so I know the pain of losing one of the family. Perhaps now Shelby can help find Goliath and still bring him home to you!

  13. So very sorry for your loss. A cat for a long time also had thyroid problems and eventually couldn’t even stand up. I sit here in tears knowing how you feel and knowing it’s even harder for you missing Goliath. I will make sure to snuggle my 3 kitties a bit more tonight.

  14. So sorry for your loss. I understand what you’re going through. A few years ago, we lost our Great Dane who was sick. It was like if we had lost a family member.

  15. Traci I have been following your posts and my cats are my world and it hurts so much when you lose one. Shelby had a very loving mum and a wonderful life, she couldn’t have asked for better, all credit to you. Don’t lose hope with Goliath he might be on your doorstep one morning. This has happened to me. Sending you huge hugs. Michelle xx

  16. it’s my privilege to read your thoughts and feelings, and to view your art, and to own several of your books. It’s my privilege to adore animals, especially cats, all of which have taught me so much, as they have taught you. I sense you may be following a spiritual path and so may I remind you to let the pain IN, feel it fully. It’s the way out. I hope you understand what I am trying to convey. Take care….

  17. Hi Traci,
    I am so sorry to hear about you losing Shelby, especially after all the trauma with Goliath missing. There’s little I can say to ease your loss except to say how lucky she was to have you as her mama. It feels like your new little kitten came into your life at just the right time, and I hope her sweet freshness can help lift some of the loss.

  18. Traci, I send my deepest condolences – having just lost the sister cat of 3 years the same tragic way of a road accident, the way her brother left us 2 years ago, only eleven months old, I can understand your pain. My beautiful Costa died in our arms & I like to think that now she & her brother Mickey are causing havoc wherever they may be, chasing mice & catching frogs(!!!) & having the same boisterous play fights they had as well as the long sleeps cuddled into one another!

  19. I am so sorry for your loss. Not terribly long ago I went with my best friend when she had her elder cat put to sleep. She held the cat and I held her. The sweetness of our feline friends remains even after they go to their reward.

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